I seriously have no idea why I am alone at home now.Everyone seems busy these days.

A Levels oral today,I was very very very disappointed with myself.):
Screwed up the first part of my oral because I was too nervous and the later part was horrible because the teachers totally had no intentions of listening to me.They were shaking their legs,looking elsewhere and just trying to get me to leave quickly so they can end early(I guess).I felt no point in continuing anyway,it probably just goes in and out of that thick skull of theirs.Why can't Mdm Jiang be our invigilator?Is that how Singapore determines their talents.I am utterly disgusted.This is probably why I hate studying,how can they guarantee that the teachers are putting in their best?And I am not even going to the part about teaching,I am just merely talking about the marking of our papers.That's why art is the best,you can never disregard someone else's talent because it would always be clearly evident.

I am feeling an all time low now,I really really need to talk to aiky or dorky
Missing S6,they never fail to make me laugh
I THANK GOD FOR YOU GUYS.(:

I thought about it long and hard,what am I doing in a JC?It was never my intention to come to a JC,furthermore,why am I wasting my life here stressing myself up?Nothing I learn here will ever help me in my future career.I regret.MY BIGGEST AND DEEPEST REGRET.I wasted my life away for my parents,but I guess,I do owe it to them somehow.I do thank GOD that I am given the chance to study,but I am just not cut out for studying.Why don't anyone seem to get it.Maybe life's just like that.

I see Mr brighteyedhappybubblypersonality walking out of my front door and not even bothering to wave goodbye.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
and I just wanna be alone
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

Snips from a great great song,if you haven't heard it,you're missing out.

Homework):

greyskies,darkclouds and you were that beautifulgoldensun(:

NITTY GRITTY!

MIDS ARE OOOOOOOOOOOOOOVER!Don't feel good about it though,but I did try my best.

NOTE:I AM SORRRRRRYYYY JEROME.I AM SORRY KHAI.I will keep quiet from tomorrow onwards.

BLOGSHOPS rock pebbles.Haha.

Anyway,went out SHOPPING today.Very happy now.But Dee's boyfriend's friend is so wierd.He was checking out Val the whole time,very perversly.OH,and Dee said he was staring at my feet or butt just now.WAS SO WIERD LAA.It's either he has never seen such a small feet or never seen such a perky ass.STUPID SHIT.I felt like telling him in the face that he IS toooooooooooooo FUGLY and that Val is tooooooooooooooooo tall for him.Dee was like telling us that he is real wierd too.She forgot to mention ugly though.XD.O well,I hope I will never ever see him again.I was totally freaked out by him.O and Dee,you LUCKY LUCKY girl,he seems like a real nice guy,a dinosaur.So stop it about angmohs ahh.Haha.

So tired now.Somehow,I totally regretted joining squash.I am starting to lose passion for it or maybe I never did have it to start with.Other people in other CCAs seem so happy.I don't know why I can't seem to like it as much as I use too.I wish I had joined table tennis with Dee and Step or maybe just continued on with guzheng and try to get that Gold that I never did get in Secondary School.ARGH.All the regrets in life I made.This year seems to pass real fast,it will pass soon and all these will just be memories.(:

I love you GOD,I just hope you could make my life seem less suicidal.

Econs is such a letdownbreakdownmeltdowntorture



...And I'm that failure.

Couldn't help it,had to blog.

Spraining my ankle seems like my part time job now.):
And the movie "You Don't Mess With The Zohan" is totally porno.XD.If you guys want some laughter,this show should do you fine,NC-16 though.

Have to go study my GP now!):

Ok,human and probably some non-human readers,I AM DECLARING WAR.Going to nerd until the 25 June.

NERDING IN PROCESS.=(

Anyway,lit play for the pass few days was horrible partially cause I went unprepared and knew little about King Lear.I HATE QNA SESSIONS.Why don't some people get it that it is impossible to have an answer for everything.Lit was suppose to be a subject left to the imagination of the audiences or readers.Why do they have to question so much and then curse the producers cause they can't answer you.JUST LET THEM DO WHAT THEY LIKE.If you think you have the answer for everything,then come up with your own production.Kudos to the actors cause you guys have worked hard,although I won't say this is the best I have seen so far.Happy to know that there are people who are willing to risk practicality of this pragmatic society to do something they love.=)

Anyway,dear,you were right,it's tough,but you and I will pull through somehow.LOVE YA.

And I'll gladly hit the road get up and go if I knew
That someday it would lead me back to you.

Heya people.

Anyway,back from CAMP ASPIRE(which was 3 days ago),but whatever.The camp was ok,food sucked bad but got to know a lot of nice people.Love goes out to Briana,Xuan and Wenhui,cause they made camp bearable.Kudos to Jaymond cause he totally kayaked me back to Singapore.He probably would have make it even faster without me,but,sorry you had to get stuck with me.Anyway,I FINALLY GOT THE WHITE ASPIRE SHIRT AND A BADGE!Once I got home,I totally fell asleep and literally missed dinner.So in total I did not satisfy my grumpy stomach for 3 days.Sorry stomach.After this camp,seriously dirt to me is no longer an issue.

Over and done with camp.

Let's talk about yesterday.TBG 2008!WOHOOO.For those who are deprived,that's THE BIG GROOVE 2008 AND IT WAS AWWWWEEEESOME.Congrats to O school was such a successful show,you guys totally make history.Somehow,I just feel more attached to O school then I was with Studio Wu.Whatever it is,dancing just makes me feel happy.That night was DOPE,haha,learning how to successfully apply that word and get laughed at by JP.ARSE.Anyway,kudos to Eurhythmix,Foreign Bodies,New Revolving Age,Strictly Dance Zone,TP Dance Ensemble,Wrecking Crew Orchestra,B.S Brothers(They are freaking CUTE),Kulture Break,28 Feet,Sunset Alleycats,Dhami,Jacky and lastly,O CREW for the fabulous job you guys did.I JUST CAN'T WAIT FOR TBG 2009!

I have a feeling I might just quit school end of this year.Seriously sick and tired of studying anymore and not doing something I like.I wish I could just drop dead now and don't have to go through all these mundane suffering.So many 'I wish',when will all these turn into reality.One simple wish that I hope GOD can fulfill and that is,"I wish I can just forget all about you right now."

I MISS YOU JEROME,wish you were here so at least I can talk to you and make myself feel less emo.

I'm not crazy
I'm just a little impaired.

Somehow,quiting school and chasing after aurora's seem tempting.Feel like running away for 5 years without a word and see what the world can offer me.

Finally figured it out
I am small,insignificant
But I don't need a man to make me feel safe and complete.
I'll stand alone and answer only to myself.
So..I'm just letting it all go now.

(:

Feel as though I've let go of a stone in my heart.Maybe I was made to just stand alone and do big things on my own.Well,at least GOD made GREEN TEA ICE-CREAMS to keep me company.

Hush now,don't cry
Cause tomorrow's gonna be a better day.(: