I seriously have no idea why I am alone at home now.Everyone seems busy these days.

A Levels oral today,I was very very very disappointed with myself.):
Screwed up the first part of my oral because I was too nervous and the later part was horrible because the teachers totally had no intentions of listening to me.They were shaking their legs,looking elsewhere and just trying to get me to leave quickly so they can end early(I guess).I felt no point in continuing anyway,it probably just goes in and out of that thick skull of theirs.Why can't Mdm Jiang be our invigilator?Is that how Singapore determines their talents.I am utterly disgusted.This is probably why I hate studying,how can they guarantee that the teachers are putting in their best?And I am not even going to the part about teaching,I am just merely talking about the marking of our papers.That's why art is the best,you can never disregard someone else's talent because it would always be clearly evident.

I am feeling an all time low now,I really really need to talk to aiky or dorky
Missing S6,they never fail to make me laugh
I THANK GOD FOR YOU GUYS.(:

I thought about it long and hard,what am I doing in a JC?It was never my intention to come to a JC,furthermore,why am I wasting my life here stressing myself up?Nothing I learn here will ever help me in my future career.I regret.MY BIGGEST AND DEEPEST REGRET.I wasted my life away for my parents,but I guess,I do owe it to them somehow.I do thank GOD that I am given the chance to study,but I am just not cut out for studying.Why don't anyone seem to get it.Maybe life's just like that.

I see Mr brighteyedhappybubblypersonality walking out of my front door and not even bothering to wave goodbye.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
and I just wanna be alone
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

Snips from a great great song,if you haven't heard it,you're missing out.

Homework):

greyskies,darkclouds and you were that beautifulgoldensun(: