I don't know.
Why am I not motivated to study?
Am I just waiting to fail?
So I can go to Lasalle faster?
So that I can leave thoughts behind?
So that maybe I do stand a chance at US with you guys?
So that maybe and maybe,if my feet was well,I would have taken up the scholarship?
So that?

I should have studied harder.
I should have gone to a better school.
I should have.
So I won't be bothered by all these things.
People around me would just push me to study.
They would look down on me if I didn't.
They won't talk to me cause I'm stupid.
They won't even want to look at me cause I'm not worth their intelligence.
Getting B grades would be a disgrace.
Getting 1 A would never be enough.
I want that kind of competition.
Because I'm not working hard enough now.

If you want to know what's a heartbreak.
Ask me.
I guess,we were never meant to be.
What more could I do?
Too shy to tell you anything.
Too lost for words.
Times like these,I wish I never met you.
Wall.e's story doesn't happen to everyone.
I'm the best example you can ever find.
I have self doubts too okay.
I have self esteem issues alright.
I want to tell you,talk to you.
But I never feel good enough for you.
I can't bring myself to even look at you.

I look at your backview and I feel contented already.
I don't know love.
I don't know self sacrifice.
If I did,I would have let you go.

I hide behind a facade.
Just wish you best of luck.
I won't see you anymore...
I loved you.
Truely.

Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

I feel all better letting it out.
I'll forget all these after today.
I'm gonna work hard like right now.
I hope that I can make it in time.
I want to make you guys proud.(:

I send all my love so that you guys aren't cold over there alright.
Haha.
You don't know how much I miss y'all.
No more late fridays.
Sleepover.
Starbucks.
Non-existent Stargazing.

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