Because I feel so lost now, because I miss everyone and because I see the evil in fashion.

So many people left, so many strangers, who are my real friends, that smile and set daggers in my back. People left being wronged, just so others could save their position in this industry. You see the evil but you can't do anything. You seek solitude in the Higher Power above, but those who serve condemn you because of your profession. When they say they'll pray 40years for your return, it's bullshit. But I don't want to degrade myself to their level and judge people with their human mind. If you'd not sin, then cast the first stone. Do not look on the outside but the inside, that's what they say, and yet, they judge you on your appearance. I do not love God any less than you just because my mind is filled with my look. But I'll move forward in this path I chose because I believe that God truly understands.

I just want to grow old fast and scather my footprints around the World and when I finally meet God, I'll tell him he created a beautiful world and that I'm glad he made me.