(:

Yah.
The past few posts were emo.
But whatever.
It's Friday!
TGIF.(:
LOVESLOVESLOVES.

Mugging mode on for the rest of the month.
Devon's leaving for US to take care of the boys.
Joy's leaving for Russia Ballet Academy or some sort.
Sabrina's leaving for Taiwan to further her arts studies.
Why is everyone leaving?
Haha.
I won't cry!
I'll wait for you guys to come back alright!(:
God knows when I'll get to see you guys again.
Work hard alright.
Love y'all.

To rayjay.
Yes,I'm coping well without you guys.
No,no one is bullying me.(Not as though there were before)
Yes,I know it's cold there.
No,I have no boyfriend yet.
Yes,I'm still mending a heartbreak.
No,I do not care if you guys died or not.Haha.Just kidding.
Yes,my leg hurts.I miss piggybacks from you guys. ):
Love you guys loads too.

My first cry and last since you guys have been gone.
I'm gonna stay strong!
I'll find new bestbuddies.XD.
I'll send you guys mail.
I'll send you guys presents.
I'll miss you guys.

To Josh and other people.
I'll pray for you.(:
You know that God's watching over you.
He'll never forsake you nor leave you.
Just open up your heart and he'll be there.
Just like he was in the beginning.
We just have to learn to open up.
I'm sorry.

I know I sound preachy,but who cares.

To Dear,Dee and Val
I hope we guys will stay strong together alright.
I love y'all.
Workhard!

youralteregolovesmeandyouknowit.

What if I never get well?
What if all I could do is just watch?

What if.What if.What if.

I don't want that to ever happen.
I want to make people happy.
I would love to show people what I am capable of.
I did not come so far just to give everything up.

What am I to live for now.

Every possible bad thing is happening to me now.
All at once.
It's difficult to handle.

Why am I the only one left behind.

If granted one wish;
I don't need riches;
I don't want the love of my life;
I just want my legs to be well.
To dance again.(:

A River and an Ocean.

Which would you have chosen?
My story didn't end that way.
Never did.
The river swept my heart away.
Everything died there.
Never once did I look at the Ocean.

Was it fault on my part.
All I could offer is dead.

I cried.
Finally.
For the first time you left.

I just want to be alone.
For now.

OMG.

I love you S6+1,though only a lil more than half was there.
Bimbo talk.Only get that when I'm with you guys.
Gracey,your friend's funny.
Eunice,I have soooooo much fun with you.
Deff,work hard alright.
Mun,from you,I see new ideas for presents.New found respect.
LOVE'YALL.
Misses dorkay and sher.

Photos up like one day.One fine day.

I don't want to be happy.Stop asking me to be GAY.
I can't decide if it's the happygay or the gaygay.
Whatever.
You know I miss you guys.):
Starbucks.Sleepovers.Trashtalk.
Dance.Drinks.Drank.Drunk.
Fights.Kicks.Punches.Hugs.Kisses.
Nonsense.Homework helping.Studying.
LOVES.):

I know pretty much none makes sense.
Too lazy to explain.
So I'm heading to lalaland.
OMG.

Somehow,it's just nights like these when I need icecreams,jay and ray.):

I don't like it when I stay up late to finish homework,I just can't sleep anymore.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

We have so much to catch up on guys and S6+1.

Off to take pills and see if I can go to bed!

"I love and miss you" just doesn't come that easy.
Damn you rayjay,what type of mail is that?!

To
Dee,Val and Dear.
LOVE YOU GUYS SOOOOO MUCH.

Photos will be up like sometime later...but soonish i promise.Haha.

To
Raykwan.I'm sorry.):
It's confession time.

Let's start with the recent ones.
I'm sorry that I ate your sweet popcorn and you attempted to tilt it out of my mouth by flipping me over your shoulder.
I'm sorry I almost made you lose your manhood during that attempt.XD.
I'm sorry for taking your stuff without permission.
The other time when we went for movies and you told me you wanted sweet popcorn only,I was angry and I ordered only salty.I'm sorry.
I'm sorry for spilling wine on your white polo ralph.
I'm sorry for vomitting on your tailored suit.
I'm sorry for using up your favourite cologne.
I'm sorry for creating trouble for you and you always end up being the one that was scolded.
I'm sorry for kicking sand into your eye.
I'm sorry for hitting you accidently with my squash racket at places that were crucial.
I'm sorry for punching you.
I'm sorry for kicking you.
(At least now you know that I am strong enough to protect myself)
During my 9th birthday,you came over and I hated you so bad cause of your stupid spider.I threw it into your shoes and you killed it.THIS,I'M REALLY SORRY.
Remember when it was my 5th birthday,your mum made you hug me and I stomped on your feet.XD.Well,I remember,it was funny,and I'm sorry.But you use to pull my hair,so it was only fair.

I can't remember when was it that we called truce,you jay and me.Haha.
YOU GUYS WERE AWFULLY MEAN.

Now,I want to thank you.(:
It wasn't all bad stuff about you alright.Haha.
Thanks for listening to this brat.
Thanks for keeping me grounded.
Thanks for believing in me.I feel loved.
Thanks for cheering me up when I hurt my legs,I really thought I had to give dance up.From the bottom of my heart,thankyou.
Thanks for shutting me up when I bitched and gossiped.
Thanks for all the free stuff.
Thanks for showing me a world bigger than I thought there was.
Thanks for being the sister+brother I never had.
Thanks for bringing me to your first high school dance.
Thanks for sharing that dance with me.(:
Thanks for being there always.No one like you.(:
NEVER EVER EVER!You'll never be replaced.You and Jay are my life.
I think I will kill myself if you guys died.

Don't know what to do without you guys.
Now there you are gone,I feel kinda lost.
No one can ever match up to you guys.
Live life the way you taught me to and we'll see each other rise to fame one day.
You'll always be my hero.(:
If I didn't know you inside out,I would have fallen for you cause you make me feel protected and loved.Haha.

RAYKWAN!

BECAUSE YOU'RE SUCH AN EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDIOT!
AND I HATE YOU!

I HATE YOU!
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!









I miss you like a lot.):