Sometimes, you have to thank GOD for food,wine and fine dinning. Thankyou GOD, the almighty. Your hands work wonders and I bet you hear that a gazillion times before.

NOTE TO RAYJAY: OI! WAHLAUEH. Your presents got stuck on an airplane and halfway through, it dropped into the bermuda triangle is it?! Haha. I think it's lost lah. Anyway, you guys should come back to Singapore for Christmas the very least. Things around here are not the same anymore without you guys, not forgetting Devon, who is STUCK being your guardian. Haha. Love you Devon and thankyou for your heartwarming present.

BBQ with my JC class I think like 2 days back, since it's already Tuesday now. It was alright, given that not many knew how to start a fire, by the time we wanted to relit the pit, it was too late. Times like these, you need someone like DAJIE, the BBQ pit starter. Haha. Went home with Val, it was nice given that I've not seen her for like ages and I really mean ages. What? I am 1 month older the last time I saw her.

2 more days and we are entering 2009. Excited? Happy? Sad? I don't know, but I feel scared. Things are gonna be really different when you hit the great 18. Almost everything is legal now and school's not gonna be the same. There will definitely be things that you can never let go in the year that's passing, but trust me, whenever it happens, you'll forget it a month later cause life goes on whether you like it or not. Something that's really valuable called 'age', but I guess I have to like it.(: Just add another line to my wrinkle collection, thanks a lot GOD! Love you all the same though.

Countdown party with 4E4 at Ian's on Wednesday, got to get something that's nice for the gift exchange. Boys will definitely get dead drunk and I really hope nothing bad happens at the sleepover. I just hope they don't rape each other. Hahaha. Ian claims that he wants to rape Jonathan. For the love of GOD, Ian you better not do it in front of me. I don't want to regret 2009. And bad Justin for being selfish and not letting us use his 3 leveled house, I bet you have enough rooms for the guys to get wasted on each other. Hahaha.

LOVELOVELOVE!

MERRY CHRISTMAS ONE AND ALL!

Don't know why, but I'm not doing anything this christmas. I didn't even christmas shop. WTH. Getting damn lazy now a days. I guess, just wanted to stay with my family today.

Went down to Popular yesterday to check out if New Moon was in stock. There were 2 books when I got there and with a turn of my head, THE 2 BLOODY BOOKS WERE GONE! WTH, I should just camp out in front of the book shelf next time man. Damn it. Now I'll have to wait till GOD knows when to get it.

Thanks guys for sending me the christmas gifts, I don't know how you guys manage to squeeze it all into my letter box. Ray and Jay, why not you guys just ship me the Twilight series! I've already received Devon's. See lah, people I've known for not as long as you guys treat me even better can. Anyway, thank you one and all, must be really expensive to ship something all the way from Russia eh, thanks Joy. Sab's going to Japan for her christmas, like wth again, pack me into your suitcase next time okay! (:

LOVELOVE and GOD bless. Have a happy holiday!

Back last night.

Tired and sick. Fever, cough and sorethroat. ):

Pictures would be up soonish cause they are all in Deff's cam.

Love to all and camp really really sucked. I survived only because of them. (:

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Going off to Miri tomorrow, church camp. It's more like prison, not even like boot camp. Pfft. Sigh, I am starting to dread the camp, why can't it be in Singapore? I don't want to go so far away! If it were in Singapore, at least I could lie and go home anytime I want to, then I can take a really nice bath. I really hate this feeling. ):

Oh well, since it's already settled, I guess there's no other choice right? Gonna go off tomorrow and then come back on 17th Dec night. ):

I really hope that I'll be like twice as excited as I'm right now(which I'm not AT ALL). I feeling feeling sick already. Sucks.

Bye Singapore and hello NO LIFE. ):

OMG. Hahahahaha, picked up a new book today, Twilight. Finished it already and I'm wanting more! But stupid popular ran out of it, so I have to wait till the time I get back from Miri. ): With all that waiting, I think it's gonna kill me.

ARGH!

Edward is like the ultimate boyfriend and Bella is like the coolest fictional character I've ever met. I am still deciding whether I should watch the movie first before reading New Moon or the other way round. The anticipation is crazy. The bloody movie is only out next year!

I've watched the Twilight movie first then read the book, so it was okay. Don't ask me how, I just did with a lil help from someone. Hahahahahahaha. The movie pales in comparison to the book. The book was beyond awesome.

So anyway, I picked up another book instead, it's Angels and Demons. I know, I think when judgement day comes, God is like going spend most of his time questioning me of my reading choices when everyone else probably gets a 2 min interrogation. But, for the deep love for reading and not forgetting, reading is the main sourse of inspiration for all my works, I will have to do what I have to do. Seriously, Twilight has given me a great deal of inspiration. Thankyou Stephanie Meyer. I really appreciate your work.(:

Now off to wrap up my Angels and Demons before reading. I can't read a book when it's not carefully protected. Hahahahahahaha, I know I'm wierd, you don't have to tell me. (:

Okay, so I went a lil mad yesterday. Hahahahahahaha. But I feel so much better now.

I did a lil anger management on my own. (:

Got myself a new paperback to read. It was a great feeling, sometimes, I don't know why I can't keep calm and think carefully. Such ordinary pleasures do the job. (: So I picked up the book, made a cosy corner on my bed and played several jazz and pop songs. I cuddled myself with piles of quilt and since it rained so much today, the temperature to do so was just fine. I enjoyed so much that it came to a point where I just lost track of time. Occasionally, I would look out of my window and see the tree right outside sway in the breeze. It looks so beautiful. By the time I stopped reading, it was about six plus closing in to seven. And the great thing about my bed, it faces the window, so I was just in time to watch the sun set. Then, I start to think about why I've never stopped everything I was doing so that I could see GOD's great wonders. (: It was lovely, watching the sky turn from yellow to orange to pink to purple to dark blue and lastly, black.

Sometimes, I wonder if I have multiple personality disorder. But up till then, I'm just gonna stay calm and enjoy what life has to offer. Life's too short to be spending it on insignificant people and things that they do. Although I did mean it when I said that they have the right to know that their dressing sense sucks and they look like fuck. Whatever it is, I am definitely leaving the church once I touch down.

I wish I never got to know you. Cold nights like these make me wonder even more about why I'll never to get to have such a great guy like you. Jason Mraz lied, it's not lucky to fall in love with your best friend. It's just not right. ):

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Seriously, no amount of that word can express my anger. I don't understand, I really don't. What's wrong with the church? Why are they such bloody fucking suckers. Don't they have their own lives to worry about? STOP RUINING MY LIFE! I know you guys don't exactly have one of your own, but that doesn't give you the right to trample on ours! Times like these, I really wish that the church I go to is like non-existent. Talk about being so saintly (If there's even this word, whateverr, now there is.). You guys are no far away from us okay!

You guys bitch about us behind our backs. OMG, that's definitely getting you to heaven cause you did it behind our backs not in front of our faces. At least, if we hate you, we tell it to your face, we don't do it behind your back. I mean, you have the right to know that your dressing sense sucks and you look like total fuck (quoted by aik, this was really a good one. Hahaha.) AT LEAST WE DON'T PRETEND LIKE WE LIKE YOU! FUCKERS.

I think after this, I need to take up anger management classes. I need professional help AND I DON'T MEAN HELP FROM CHURCH! Damn it.

I hate all the serving brothers and sisters. To think that I was so gullible when I was younger. I already knew that there was something wrong with this church when I was like 12/13. I already wanted to leave. I didn't stay because of you fuckers. I STAYED BECAUSE I LOVED GOD AND I THOUGHT THAT I SHOULDN'T LET YOU GUYS GET IN THE WAY. But trying to keep up with this sort of lifestyle is getting to me. I don't think I want to live a life like that anymore, if I stayed any longer, I think I would start to hate the fact that I love GOD. Even aik, who made me stay is thinking about leaving already.

TALK ABOUT NOT LYING MAN! YOU GUYS ARE ALWAYS LYING TO US! FUCKERS! (Sorry, I know I have a limited vocabulary when it comes to expressing my anger. I couldn't think of a better substitute for "FUCK".) To sister W, what were you thinking when you said "I understand that it's difficult and I symphatise with you." WHAT THE HECK WAS GOING THROUGH IN YOUR MIND WHEN YOU SAID THOSE THINGS?! Did you actually think that I was going to buy that? And there you are pushing the blame to the brothers. If you guys hate us, hate us outwardly! SCREW IT! Don't put on a facade and act like you care. I DON'T NEED YOU YOUR CARE AND CONCERN! DAMN IT.

To sister NC. Your daughter isn't that much of an angel okay. She does bitch and it's not about some stranger, it's about someone who thought of her as a friend! And I thought she and Aik were like friends.

To sister R, I still hate you, maybe even more than ever. Sacarsm is not going to get you far, maybe it did, cause you lived half of your life being the way you are. Well, if GOD likes someone like you to help him in his church, then I have nothing to say.

To sister SL, YOU FUCKING HELL SUCK. I HATE YOU FOREVER AND EVER. YOU FUCKING BITCH! YOU LOOK LIKE SHIT TOO! BLOODY SUCKER. FUCK OFF FROM MY LIFE!

So, how do you guys like that? I really hope that all of you are reading this. HOW DO YOU LIKE THAT?! How do you like being judged by a 17 year old? If you don't like it, DON'T JUDGE ME EITHER! YOU'RE NOT GOD AND YOU ARE IN NO POSITION TO JUDGE ME! LOSERS. I'm merely returning the favour, an eye for an eye, a tooth for a tooth. It was good to know you guys cause it gave me more reasons to never ever to return back to church. I do not question my love and fear for GOD, but this time, you guys pushed it a lil too far. To burry the hatchet and make peace is never gonna happen. I HATE YOU ALL (well, except for a few). I will never step into church again once I return from this camp. Seeyah in heaven suckers, or maybe, seeyah in hell, since we sinned equally.

Anyway, over and done with that, I feeling so much better now. Feeling less angry I guess. Blogging really helps, maybe I should write a really long thankyou letter to blogger. My dad still refuses to get me an IPhone. He said he's going to get me Nokia E66 instead. ): The shape looks kinda wierd, but it's a really cool phone. I guess, be glad that I can even get a new phone during these times!(:

I miss you guys so much. I wish I had someone else from S6+1 to bitch to. I really miss you guys. Anyways, lovelove to those that didn't piss me off.(: LOVELOVE TO GOD TOO!

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That's how I look like right now. *points to that "omg,what a big face" right up there*

My whole family is fighting for the internet bandwidth and being the youngest,I lost without a fight. ): Whateverrrrrr. Besides cleaning up my room,I didn't really do much.

Went out with dookay on Wednesday,gave my dearest a new name so I set myself apart from those who call her dork. SHOPPING! Didn't buy loads though. Saw a couple of people that I didn't really want to see. Oh well, Singapore's small, so there's no point in complaining. Maybe I should study overseas so that I'll appreciate Singapore a lil bit more.(: Bought a lovely highwaisted shorts from F21 and got my jacket! I'm still left with a fedora that I have to get. Does anyone have a cap that I could borrow? Need it to hide my face when boarding the plane which flies off to church camp destination. Anyway, we were trying on clothes in F21 when I saw this group of office ladies next to my changing room whose actions were like hilarious. There were 3 of them and then they crowded around the changing room to look as if they were checking out their friend's outfit to make sure it was alright to buy. You may think nothing's wrong with that. Read on please.(: One was in the changing room and the other 2 were waiting outside, with clothes in their hands as well. GUESS WHAT?! (Seriously,it's a no-brainer) They took turns with that changing room. After one was done, she went to find more clothes. Poor people who were waiting in line. When we went in the second time, they were there as well and dookay was waiting right outside my changing room. Dookay wanted to try on the pencil skirt and so I let her in. But she didn't want to make the other people in line wait any longer, however, guess who was in line next... It was that 3 office ladies again. I pulled her in anyway and commented: " Someone should tell them that this is F21 and not F31!" XD. Yahyah, you guys may think that I'm damn mean. But I'm gonna turn 31 one day and then the little pesky kids in the future would say the same thing about me, so why not I say it now and not regret it later on in life!(:

Went out with mommy on Thursday and bought a black skirt from M(phosis. If it wasn't for church camp, I could have used that $52.60 to buy something better! And it wasn't even worth the price.): After which, went out with dookay again...Looking like a lian. I don't know what the hell was I thinking man. But dookay said the jacket looked like tartan, hopefully she told the truth and not to make me happy. Went to Zara where dook got the heart filled jacket that I wanted at first. She couldn't decide between Grey or Purple so we spent about 2plus hours at Vivo thinking about the choices. Hahahahahaha. If I'm not wrong, she took the Grey one in the end. Still didn't get the fedora that I really wanted.

Went out with Dajie yesterday. So very angry with him. Hahahaha. First, he made me wait at the mrt station like a loser who came too early. Then, he forgot about my present from Vietnam.): *steps on jie* Even though jie is like 183cm, he still acts like a child. All the way from the mrt he repeatedly said that he wants to watch Bolt but I wanted to watch Wild Child. I won the scissorspaperstone, but I gave in to him in the end. Don't get me wrong, Bolt was cute! It's just that I feel sour having to give in to a guy that is of the height of Mount Everest. After which, it was GloriaJean and to Paragon to visit the people working at Metro. Meixin is still working there and they said there are like more cute guys this time. Damn. The flower boy is cute. Hahahahaha. Lifeng and Calvin/Kevin (Aiyah, they have such confusing names, anyway, it's the nicer one that I'm talking about) promoted! They are managers now. Hahahahahahaha, but...they can't scold me anymore! Hahahahahahahaha. Was happy to see them anyway.

Can't decide which handphone to get. It's such a terror when you are put in this position where there is no chio (Yah, I know what you're thinking. But, I'm gonna do what Miss Ni said: "Embrace the Ahlian culture.(:" ) handphones around and you're only given one week to decide. If Singapore had T-Mobile Sidekick LX™, I would be the first in queue for it! But sadly, it's only available in US/Canada and if you want it in Singapore, you have to pay to get it unlocked. I really love the Juicycouture Sidekick as well, but it ain't available either. So I have decided, no matter how much my dad dislikes Apple, I'm gonna lay my hands on an IPhone. :D

This is the unbeatable T-Mobile Sidekick LX™.(:

And the all familiar IPhone.(:

Lovelove to all and God be with you.

Helllllo FREAKS! (recall madagascar)

Was so bored so I decided to start something like a photo diary!I mean,since I hardly get to see any of my friends now,might as well let them see for themselves how I've been living my life! (:

So what did I do today?Hmmm,well......

SPRING CLEANING!I'm starting early cause I have a lot to work on,so much that you have have no idea how long it'll take me.Well,see it with your own eyes then!

My absolutely messy desk.Don't even know how I managed to study with all that mess.

My horribly disorientated shelves.

My computer desk with a lot more than just the computer.

My encyclopedia shelf.Messy with stuff.

Supposed book shelf but stuffed with loads of bags.

This is how my room looks like now.It looks like war gave my room a lil visit (quoted from my mum).Haha.She's just kidding....I think.

Messy messy.

Me hard at work and of course hard at work with taking photographs.(:

After a long long weekend....This is bits of how my room looks like now!

Neat neat shelves!

Clean walls with all the nice stuff people gave me.(:

I use to have this habit of collecting price tags.No kidding.I bet all these add up to like $2000 over.Those were the days where mum bought me polo ralph shirts and espirit without a thought.Thanks to recession,the good old days are now over.

Really tired now,so I'm gonna go bask in my lil lalaland.Why do they call it lalaland anyway?Lots more to do tomorrow and my room isn't close to done (It's already the 3rd day today. ): ) Gonna dream of my Yu too!(: Love him oh so much.