Because I feel so lost now, because I miss everyone and because I see the evil in fashion.

So many people left, so many strangers, who are my real friends, that smile and set daggers in my back. People left being wronged, just so others could save their position in this industry. You see the evil but you can't do anything. You seek solitude in the Higher Power above, but those who serve condemn you because of your profession. When they say they'll pray 40years for your return, it's bullshit. But I don't want to degrade myself to their level and judge people with their human mind. If you'd not sin, then cast the first stone. Do not look on the outside but the inside, that's what they say, and yet, they judge you on your appearance. I do not love God any less than you just because my mind is filled with my look. But I'll move forward in this path I chose because I believe that God truly understands.

I just want to grow old fast and scather my footprints around the World and when I finally meet God, I'll tell him he created a beautiful world and that I'm glad he made me.

Omg, I wanted to kill myself after watching a clip on Jae.

How can anyone treat him like that! I wanted to cry when he said: " I came here to make ends meet..."

Don't get Jae and my Jay mixed up. Hahaha, Jay, please leave NY and move to Seattle to find Jae for me will you? AHahahaha, God, miss you and Ray so much. LOVELOVELOVE!

ARGH! Omg, I had it with the press. What's up with them and Raffles Design? It's like the editor in chief hates us.

I don't really think that I'm being sensitive but you guys can go dig up your urban news and take a look ( Sorry, can't remember when it was, around August? But at that time, I thought I was just being sensitive). The paper was introducing the various art schools in Singapore and they make the other schools sound like it's a pool filled with genius designers and Raffles? It's just a place where all the rich don't know where they want to spend their money and decided that the $70k school fees was the best choice.

Today, just finished with the Elle magazine and the Elle Award nominees were there. I'm glad to say that from designer of the year award, 2 were our alumni. One of our grads were also nominated for the best grad award, the other 2 were from NAFA and LaSalle respectively. I'm not saying that they don't deserve the praise, but I just want to understand why was the nominee from my school describe this way. Comments from the other 2 schools were like how great, poetic and well done their collection was, but the nominee for my school....:" Because this Hunan native's ambition is to make eco-aesthetic clothes that can save the world." It sounds like they were writing a superman comic. Why use the world because at the start of the sentence? Is that all her talent is worth?

I know how bad this industry works, our teachers are already preparing us with the fact that out of 100 grads, only 1 will ever become a designer. For me, design is not for your own pleasure, in fact, you will never get any, because ultimately, the crowd is the one buying your products, they are the ones you should please.

I don't want to put down the other schools, I just want to know why is our school receiving such reviews from the press. We are not brats who decided that sleeping a whole week is a waste of time and that $70k should be wasted for pleasure. Most of the time, we don't get sleep for a whole week just to finish up on our projects. We don't even have a decent holiday while other schools get a 3 months break. I don't understand why we are treated so unfairly.

I guess if this continues, I'm gonna move to some other place so that I have a say in my future the very least. I'm glad Ashley Isham moved away from Singapore, and don't talk crap because even his sister is from our school. Oh God, I'm so dying to move away!

So there's a possibility that your soulmate can never be with you forever can there?

We promissed each other 10 years, didn't we? But I'll give you up just like how dance gave up on me.

Sometimes, I really don't understand what my classmates are thinking. It intrigues me to an extent anyway.

Apparently, if your child fails in exam, you can sue the teacher for being racist. Never knew right? So my friends in JC, go ahead and sue since almost all of us fails and it's impossible that we should fail because we're always the best in our parents' eyes. It's amazing. Oh Oh! And school's should never have competition amongst students because it's a school. ( HUH? That's just BS. )

I don't understand how people can be too sick to come to school but yet can spend the night outside partying. And some even give excuses like my family member died and they have to go back to my country and guess what! The family member calls her just in time to argue with her. And ultimately, these people hope that they would end up famous and rich. Someone should go through their thick skull and tell them that it's difficult to become famous especially for us designers because it's make it or break it. If all you want to be is become famous, please just stop studying and be a celebrity. I really don't understand how I fought so hard to study in this course and yet, it's just nothing to some others.

But thankfully, I still have my clique of friends who are not anything like these people at all.

So here I am crying with tears of joy cause I've finally got to hear from you guys. Pleasant surprise. Imagine picking up the phone and the first thing you hear is your favourite song. (: Doesn't make it any easier if it's in Korean does it? Totally no idea how much I love you guys. It did send chills down my spine and I had tingling sensations in my heart. This song is so awesome, it does things to your mind.

So few days back, my brother and I were just replaying all the great songs and dance moves MJ did, especially the moon walk and the toe stand. It almost brought tears to my eyes that the guy had to leave so soon.

I'm just listening to the song you guys sang to me over and over. I think I'd be playing this song over and over again till I fall asleep. I guess I won't get to see you guys anytime soon would I, this song's just gonna keep me alive waiting for you guys to come back. I won't post the song cause I want to keep it special between us. You 2 have no idea how today's phone call is going to keep me striving because I feel so lonely fighting everything now. I really feel so lonely, no one knows me anymore, cause I myself don't really know myself anymore. I'm such a joke, how I can place money with such great importance now. I'm just a joke, a big lie and a big joke.

But after spending time in the real world outside government school, things are no longer just 2 dimentional, because money has made it 3 dimentional. I really need a hug from you guys now. It's such a cold night tonight. (:

I love you 2. (:

Great great week. Had so much fun with my classmates, sometimes I feel that 1 week break is too long cause I don't get to see my friends.

Anyway, really hooked onto this Korean boy group called 2pm. OMG, hawt hawt hawt! Absolute love. I'll post videos on them later. Love that they're great dancers. (: Shit, I feel like a giggly school girl cause my hands are shaking as I'm typing about them, hahahahahahaha. How I wish I was born in Korea. Looking at Korean guys make my heart melt, like when I'm watching Boys Before Flowers. (: Ahhhhhh, Kim Hyun Joong, Kim Bum (he deserves an extra ahhhhhhhh), Jaebeom, Junsu, Nichkhun, G-Dragon and TOP. With celebrities like these, who can hate South Korea?

Homework load is still alright, sewing with Jenny was great fun! Hahahahaha, I love it, oh and by the way, I'm currently sewing bodices. Drafting is absolute terror, it was a terror before anyway, I have the least confidence for this subject, but I'm still loving draping. Draping is awesome cause you can never go wrong with draping, well, so far. Computer class is still alright cause we haven't really started and we're using big screen Macs, so I'm happy. (: OH! And I've finally got the fashion drawing class, fun fun fun. (:

The other day, chloe was asking me what do I look out for in guys. I don't know, never really thought about that, but money is, to me, the most important thing. Please don't go judging me and telling me all that crap about how love can move mountains, cause it can't and money can. So Shuwen asked what if I found true love and he was poor. Thus, in turn, I meant to say I'm never gonna find true love if I'm just looking at his wallet. (: But then again, I can never have any relationship in this industry that I'm gonna work in, because I will never be willing to put down my work for my family. Life's just like that, money talks and love will never have a position in life and I'm gonna make lots of money! Hopefully... However, if that promise still holds when we are 30, you'll be the only one I'll desert my career for.

Can't wait for next week. Ultra busy. I have to rush back on Sat to Malaysia to celebrate my Grandma's 80th birthday and back on Sat night. Sun morning, someone's gonna buy me my birthday lunch LIKE FINALLY and at night, CHLOE's birthday party! Hahahahaha, can't wait. Wonder if she's gonna get strippers.

But anyway....

My God, this is so true that it's creepy. I chose it in order with my natural instincts first and then subsequent liking for the pictures. Which basically means, pink picture comes first.

The Part of You That No One Sees is Lonely

You are unique, witty, and even a little snobby. You're quite proud of who you are, and nothing is going to change that. You've paved your own way in life, and you've ended up where you want to be. Underneath it all, you feel very isolated from the rest of the world. It's hard to find people to relate to you on every level. The mundane interests of your friends and family often bore or depress you.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

The Part of You That No One Sees is Judgmental

You are wise, insightful, and brilliant. Your wit is sharp and occasionally hurtful... Revealing your scorn for people with less intelligence. Underneath it all, you feel burdened by the stupidity of humanity. You know what's right in the world, but it's overshadowed by everything that's wrong. People see you as arrogant. While this is partially true, you are also very sensitive.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

The Part of You That No One Sees is Vulnerable

You are lively, dramatic, and flamboyant. You have an outrageous personality... And you secretly resent anyone who makes you tone it down. Underneath it all, you are driven by your need for attention and acceptance. You need to feel special at all times. You are secretly jealous and occasionally insecure.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?

Omg. Haven't blogged in like ages, but I've been really busy last term sewing and sewing non-stop. Injured my hands so many times that I can't feel a needle prick anymore.

Let's start with the fashion show I went to recently, to be more exact, it was my school's grad show. Do not expect fabulous work because they've just graduated, so it's more like pieces we see everyday, nothing that oh so special. But I do have my favourites. (Stupid ass blogger, I can't seem to upload the pictures from the fashion show. Will do 3 months later. (: ) In another 1 year and 6 months, I'm gonna have my grad fashion show too! Be sure to come! Oh wait, maybe I should review my collection first before asking you guys to come. (:

This week was term break, so I totally went crazy by going out shopping with dork and I bought...
1) MNG playsuit $39
Omg, talking about MNG, stupidstupidstupid. Remember the MNG bag I bought like eons ago for $125? They're selling it for $89 now. Oh well, at least dork brought up the fact that they don't sell the colour of my bag anymore.
2) Zara Tshirt $19.90
3) Zara Oversized Tee $29.90
4) Zara Checkered Shorts $49.90
5) Dorothy Perkins Printed Tee $36
6) F21 Shrit $38
7) Lee Cooper Slip On $49.90

Total: $262.60! I LOVE GSS!

Hahahaha, I'm so glad, everything was a steal especially Zara. I wanted to get a grey cut out bootie for $126, but I thought better not, because it didn't look all the comfy. Shopping was awesome, but apparently things went so wrong between us sisters. Everything just seems so wrong, let's hope all ends well and we'll stay together longer. I may seem hypocritical because I've said bad things and done bad things but I want us to put everything behind.

New modules up for the next term!
Sewing 2
Draping 2
Drafting 2
Fashion Drawing
CAD 1

Exciting but I'm fearful because loads of things happened in the past module and I think that we're just going to get all the fierce teachers this term. THANKS TO SOMEONE. Not saying that they won't teach us in future, but because of that someone, our class is under the radar even the principal is going to teach us. Oh no, I just hope I'll do well, keep my mouth shut and live peacefully.

Anyway, this part is going to be boring, but it's a tribute to MJ. I know probably millions of people have done it already, but now, it's my turn. Music icon and a great dancer. Everyone has heard of, sang and danced his songs. If you haven't, then it's your lost. Many people probably am going to debate about tributing him because he use to be a 'monster' in their eyes, but you cannot deny the fact that he is the greatest pop star. Let those who have not sinned cast the first stone, which I feel, would be no one. I remember I was 4 when my dad played his songs on the radio. (: Those days...my family would just gathered on the sofa and watch all his mvs. All his dance moves...just flawless. Since it was term break this week, I just pulled out all the MJ cds I had and watched them over and over again. I wanted to put down everything here, board the plane that was leaving for US and just attend his funeral. How life's just so fragile.

Realised that I haven't blogged for so long but all I had to say was just cramped in 1 short post. Blogging has really lost it's appeal to me. When I was in JC, I had so much time to blog, so much urge to blog. But now, I'm just going to return 3 months later because I have no time to blog anymore. (:

OH MAN OH MAN! I have a fashion show to go to on Mon and I have no idea what to wear. It doesn't really help when people are buying freaking ex clothes to wear to the show. Hahahaha, take for example, paul, who is wearing a $3000 D&G shirt. THANKS MAN!

No stress at all!(:

Sheesh. I think I'm gonna have to pull an amazing feat to get it done. Hahahaha, at least I still have tomorrow to think through it. Oh well, will post great photos when I have time that is, cause I'm having my major exams next week onwards. SUCKS. And I haven't finish any of the research book. Not good.

Hectic life,no time to really blog,so am just going to do a really quick post.

Birthday was alright cause I had class and so, I could only celebrate at night. Went out with deff (her birthday is one day before mine and we a best friends, what are the chances?) to watch the gala premire of night at the museum 2. Great great fun and I love the Einstein bobble heads. So I wore this really nice cotton blazer which everyone said it looks expensive, but in actual, it only cost me $35. I paired it together with a charles and keith signature ultra killer heeled bootie and my ultimate love, mango bag.

Anyway, sewing loads of skirts this term and they are all looking really good!Lovelovelove.

Recently saw many many great shoes from pedro, charles and keith and zara. I want to get them all! Dorothy Perkins sent me an invitation to Girls night in, but I'm not sure if I want to go because none of my friends can come along. That really really sucks, Claire said I'm gonna get stucked with all the OL's. Hahahahaha. So I think I'd probably won't go.

Okay,gotta bounce and finish sewing up another skirt!(:

Labour Day. Why is labour day a holiday when it's suppose to be labour day?

Well anyway, S6 out to celebrate Dork's birthday at Go India. The view - spectacular, the food - mediocre and the company - couldn't be any better. However, I think Dork was a lil upset with how things ended. Babe, I'm always here for you. (: But actually, I didn't expect the ending to be like that but oh well. At least we had a decent retail therapy.

Dork bought 2 dresses from ClubMarc and I bought a Zara ballerina flats and long awaited MNG BAG! WOHOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Omg, it's money well spent and money worth spending. I absolutely love it. Dork was thinking about the other one, cause I bought the blue one. I think I'm having this obsession with navy blue. I've never been happier in my life. Maybe not as happy as when my dad bought me Dior make up kit. No kid, MY DAD, yah, you heard me right, that made me really happy too. (: Maybe this is 2nd best.

So anyway, I'm still clueless about what to do for my birthday. Clubbing is out of the question cause all my guy friends would be underage, it really sounds funny to me. I was thinking of having just one birthday party with all my primary,secondary,JC, RDI friends and S6 sisters. I hope Deffy would be in with this idea cause I'm tired of meeting up so many people for my birthday. And the good thing is Deff is born on the 19th and I on the 20th. Probably book a more economical restaurant or something, maybe fish & co. But the name alone makes me want to barf. The ambiance is good though.

Birthday wishlist
1. Macbook Pro 15"
2. ITouch 32Gb
3. Zara stiletto
4. Top Shop Loafers
5. Top Shop Oxfords
6. Top Shop Booties
7. Aldo stiletto
8. La Senza Ugg Boots
9. River Island Clutch
10. Thomas Sabo Watch with Lucky Number 18 charm
11. S6 Personalised Charm Bracelet (I really want this one, girls, should we get it done at Tiffany's?)
12. (Let's just keep this to myself)




Let me not to the marriage of true minds
Admit impediments. Love is not love
Which alters when it alteration finds,
Or bends with the remover to remove:
O no! it is an ever-fixed mark
That looks on tempests and is never shaken;
It is the star to every wandering bark,
Whose worth's unknown, although his height be taken.
Love's not Time's fool, though rosy lips and cheeks
Within his bending sickle's compass come:
Love alters not with his brief hours and weeks,
But bears it out even to the edge of doom.
If this be error and upon me proved,
I never writ, nor no man ever loved.

Willian Shakespeare
Sonnet 116

Nor no man ever loved.

Aww man, Colin's left cause the ICA didn't approve his student pass. So it's goodbye Colin for 3 months. Seeyah in FD3!

Anyway, loads and loads of drama in school today. Really, I think it's not something to be blown off the hook, but, I think I'm just gonna leave it like that for the moment. I hope you guys can settle the problem soon.

Damn, I can't decide what to do during my birthday. I have like sooooooooooo many suggestions from friends in school, like...... 1. Go clubbing 2. Have strippers at my party 3. Go to a gay club. It really does sound fun, but I don't think I'll be that crazy yet. My 18th birthday, should I opt for wild child or demure classy. Kinda spoilt for choices. I really don't know what to do. I still have like 1 month, so I think I'll just put it on hold.

I really don't understand some things at times, does listening to classical music or reading books that were meant for a 40 year-old make you classy or smart? What's wrong with liking R&B? What's wrong with liking rap? What's wrong with liking electronica, rock, pop or up beat music? Must I be some emo kid that listen to sobby songs or classical music to make me fit it? It technically makes no sense to me. You aren't God, so don't judge. I fall head over heels for black people culture, vampire story books( I'm not talking about Twilight only) and fashion. What's wrong with that?

But sometimes, it's just gonna end up with a whatever and move on with life. Anyway, I can't wait to go out with S6, dork's turning 18 in another 3 days, AWESOME BABY GIRL! We'll go watch M18 movies and fuss over when we're turning 21. Hahaha. I miss my sec school and JC friends. I wonder how are they now.

Work hard people! And I have to go get my work done now.

Was a really long day today, feeling damn tired now after draping class. Anyway, I was really bored so I went scouting for video clips. Will put one at the end of the post to show you guys, I absolutely love the song.

Oh, a new guy joined our class, so Paul isn't lonely anymore. Hahahaha, he's name is Colin by the way. Life's good, we are bonding quite well now and I pretty much love my class like a lot. OHOH! Brian, the before haute couture designer and now RDI lecturer, has a project for us in which would be displayed during his fashion show or something like that. Omg, you have no idea how much I adore the guy, he is great. He makes history fun, just like Mr Hazry and Mr Mong (no, that's not his real surname, he's called Mark Wong actually, so you get the point). Hmm, I think it's because Step and Dee make funny comments, which makes Mong really frustrated, resulting in fun history lessons.

Anyway, I am getting really pissed with the overuse of the word chic. Maybe I'm not pissed that the word is overused, but rather people who use it don't know how to pronounce it. I know I'm in fashion now, but that doesn't mean that everything awesome has to be labelled chic. There are many other vocabulary in the dictionary, just pick one other than chic, how difficult is that!

I guess, by saying so much, I should teach people how to pronounce the word properly. Chic (pronounced "sheek") meaning stylish or smart, is an element of fashion and the counterpart of posh. It's pronounced this way because it's not an English word to begin with! Screw phonics and do as the French do. I swear I will slap the next person left right center if he/she pronounces it wrongly. If you don't believe me, go google it or another easier way, talk to Brian, he knows French really well. Another reason why I adore him.

Anyway, I think I haven't mention the modules I'm taking this term. I have Contempt History, Sewing, Garment Compo, Drape and Drafting. Really tiring subjects, take today as an example, we were just draping a simple skirt and we started at 2pm and ended at like 9pm. And tomorrow, class starts at 9am, which means I have to wake up at 7am. ):

Christian Lacroix's exhibition is in town till June, I suggest that everyone who likes the word "chic" so much should go take a look. It was awesome, I absolutely loved it and loves him. His designs are really different because he is a costumier and oh, to the previous A07, he made costumes for the play Othello and I thought that it was excellent. Okay, shan't bombard you guys with all these things about fashion, less you people say that I'm acting all high and mighty now.

Gonna leave you guys with the video I was watching. I think that it's really cute and well made. You can love or hate it, it's your choice, but I loved it.

I know I know. I shouldn't be wasting my time blogging, but I really really have to say this. MY LECTURER WAS A DIOR HAUTE COUTURE DESIGNER, THAT AWESOME OR WHAT!

Omg, I really cannot imagine, he's just 33 and he has worked with John Galiano and Christian Lacroix. He's brain is filled with information and I just feel like buying him coffee and sitting down at the cafe to pick his brains. I CANNOT BELIEVE IT. This goes to show, being a social butterfly ain't a bad thing, see, you get to meet cool people like my lecturer. Although I do not credit it to being a social butterfly, it was just because he's my lecturer, but still, contacts are very important in my line.

Anyway, I have decided to pimp my facebook a lil and add more photos. Damn lazy lah, had facebook for like a year and more and today is my third time adding photos. Even my pet tofu has a foul mood already, but I really can't be bothered. Anyway, not exactly excited for tomorrow's lesson cause I have this really bad gut feeling that I'm getting the horrible lecturer. Oh well, my life goes on.

I'm so glad I went to church today. First of all, for once, S6+1 made it as the full clique. Second, I finally got to have a good long talk with Aik. Sometimes, I feel that Aik is like the mirror to my soul. I guess, I'm finally finding a little bit of joy in my life.

I don't know why, but I'm stuttering while writing this post. It's like, you want to say something, but you're holding back because you don't know how people are going to respond to it. Sometimes, I really want to say, " SCREW WHAT YOU THINK." But to be that perfect daughter, sister, friend and student, I hold back. I know, what's the big deal about that right, many other people do that too. I don't know, maybe I just feel tired to keep up that facade anymore.

I really don't deny what Aik said, but why am I trying to come up with excuses for myself. I want to accept, yet I can't open myself up to do so. What has become of me, I really want to know what happened. I know I cannot do this, but I blamed GOD. I want to ask for his forgiveness, but I can't even bring myself to do it now. I know what grace meant, how people are just self centered and this particular group of people are just like that. She has her problems, and I cannot bother her with my problems all the time. She's breaking away from Singapore and so will I. The grass is always greener on the other side, maybe in time to come, I'll say things like I miss Singapore and there's no place like it on Earth. But for now, I just want to leave this place for like a year or two and experience life on that greener grass patch.

I am a perfectionist and yes, I am a self-defeatist. The worst combination you can ever put together and the most depressing person you'll ever find. I just sugar coat my life flawlessly to be spotted.

Whatever Aik told me, really makes a person think. Why do people want to be famous? What so good about you that you have to be talked about all the time? You are just 1 in 6 billion people, what makes you so special that we have to lick the floor you strut on. And what's so good about putting people down if you're smart? If I take away all your academics, you have nothing left. I agree and I guess, I'm no longer that person who does that anymore. I cannot, it's horrible and I don't want to become such a person. I'm living a lie, a lie so deep that I can't even save myself out of it.

I have to grow up and grow out of it. I'm really sorry for slandering Brother Kim Tee, I really meant no harm. I was just so foolish. I am really thankful for all the church elders because they probably care more about us than most of our friends do. I'm a guarded person, but sooner or later, it has to be let go off. After everything in life I've experienced, I've grown, but just not enough. I'll grow up, in my thoughts and actions. I'm not young anymore, I'm turning 18 in just a lil more than 2 months. I have to put all my effort into studying now cause I'll be working once I graduate.

I should just remember the good and let go of the bad. I have to thank the Lord that I can wake up to a brand new morning, get up from a bed, be able to walk to my bathroom and be able to freshen up with clean water. I have to be thankful that I have a complete family and a great brother who, I must add, loves to bully me. I guess, it's loving in it's own way. It's time I look at the good and thank the Lord for making me stronger with the bad. Everything happens for a reason and I don't know what took me so long to accept that.

Life's a vicious cycle and it should just make you a stronger person than you were before.

Aiyah, stupid Step, talking about her Mr T all day long. I ALSO HAVE MR T OKAY! One who goes through thick and thin with me, looks all battered and dirty..... My Table (Mr T). XD. Anyway, I think I'm really dead, I can't finish my homework at all.

I think Step is right, I should stop bickering with Paul. In Step's theory, couples bicker when they start out and slowly, fall in love with each other. O.O... I must stop myself. Hahaha.

Have to go back and finish up my colour theory homework now. ):
Oh, and Step, I really regret not getting that MNG bag.

It's been kinda long, but I still think of him. It really drives me to the wall. My heart races when I talk about him, it makes me feel like a stupid school girl all over again. Step thinks it's an awesome feeling, I guess so? I grin like an idiot when I think about it. It's really retarded when I think back. Cheter keeps pushing me to talk to him, but Step thinks I should take it slow. I think I'd probably end up doing it my way - shut up and let it fade into oblivion. Awesome.



Anyway, if you guys are wondering, I got a B for my chinese. I really wanted an A and I did put in my best effort. Guess it's just never enough. Just like me, never good enough... Hahahahaha, stupid emo. Whatever.



Off from com and on to bed. Loves.

Everyone has been asking me what I have been busy with. Really, what have I been busy with. I've been busy with projects and school, I don't even have time for dance anymore. I decided to show you one of my projects, one that I spent a lot of effort on. I really miss the good old days. Those days that I had time to dance. Design school was not what I thought it to be, it's even tougher than JC. Doing projects till 5 in the morning.

I miss S6+1, even though we are the closest, I haven't seen them for like a month. I miss my dear, val, cheter, damn, I miss step and cheter's nonsense the most. See, tributes to you guys.

Whatever, damn tired now and I'm meeting my project group at 10am tomorrow. Kinda sucks.

It's been so long since my last update, have been really really busy, no kidd. And there I was thinking that private schools are a whole blob of glob that slacks. I've been rushing projects till 5am and waking up at 9am to either finish up or to go to school. It's like an ultimate mad rush.

I've pretty much lost track on the amount of projects I have already. Let's see..

Projects till date
1. Psychology of Colour (6 March)
2. Kazakhstan dolls (10 March)
3. Eco Friendly Products (Week 10)
4. Textile Major Project (25 March)
5. History Marjor Project (25 March)
6. Fashion Merchandising Major Project (26 March)
7. Psychology of Colour Major Project (27 March)

Okay, ultimately in really deep shit. I have to finish everything by next week so I'll have time to print and bind and beautify. So tired and so dead. ):

Don't ask me how's life cause it sucked.
Don't ask me how's Vday cause it sucked too.

Blogger is currently a means of personal organizer so live with it.
Pissed off with all the fucking fashion projects.

Projects to date
1)Psychology of Colour (20 Feb)
2)Textile Project 2 (25 Feb)
3)Fashion Merchandising Project 2 (5 March)
4)Textile Project 3 (10 March)
5)History Project 2 (10 March)
6)Textile Major Project (25 March)
7)History Major Project (25 March)

FUCK MAN. I can't believe it till I had it all written out. All the bloody homework I have, sucks to the core. No sleep again.

WAHLAUEH! Screw the stupid History of Costumes. I HATE RESEARCH BOOKS! DAMN FUCKED UP. I had to read like about 16 books before starting on my first chapter, how am I suppose to do that for all 13 chapters!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

And that Jerome lah, said something that made me feel so self concious. Raykwan just made me feel worst man. Say I smile too much and laugh too loud. WAHLAUEH! He doesn't understand how something so little like me can pack so much noise. WTH! Don't talk to you liao, even if you go on your knees to beg me. BEG ME AND I STILL WON'T TALK TO YOU!

Hahahahahaha. Sorry, just a lot of anger.

Had a good chat with Cheter too, I hope you'll find the answer okay. Love you loads and you know it.(:

Seriously, my personal organiser is getting so messy that I have to use blogger as my other organiser...

Homework list
1. Textile Minor Project 2
2. Textile Major Project
3. History of Costume Minor Project 1
4. History of Costume Major Project
5. Fashion Merchadising Minor Project
At least I finished one, oh joy.
6. Colour theory Colour wheel.

And more to come...till I finally figure out what I wrote in my organisers.

My VS bags are here already! Hahahaha. I really like them a lot, but I have no more strength to feel happy. (:
Finished my FM homework already and almost done with my colour wheel, but I feel like redoing my exam colour wheel piece, but I'm really tired already. ):

OH! By the way, passerbys of my blogs, Raffles Education Corp is having a open house this Sat, so if you're interested, please drop by! (:

I think dad's just out to spite me. Hahaha, I told him I didn't need a flatscreen plasma for my computer. Instantly the next day, he got me a 21" flatscreen. I DON'T NEED A FLATSCREEN! I NEED A HANDPHONE!

So Step and I were like thinking, if I said that I don't need it, maybe he'll buy it for me! So I told my dad, " Dad, I don't need LV, Gucci and Prada!" and his reply was, " That's my girl! Good for you. If you want it in future, daddy won't stop you, just use your own money. *Flashes a grin*

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Oh well, he's my dad and I know him all too well, I'll never get it. Hahahahaha. I guess, that means I just have to work hard for what I want, and I'll do just that!

Snoozeeeee and lovelove. (:

YAY!

I finially got the Victoria Secret bags I wanted. Daddy bought it for me! Hahahahahaha, feeling so happy now. But sometimes he is just so wierd, I wanted the VS bags cause it was nice and cheap too, but he insisted that I get the CR bag which cost $370. He insisted that he'll pay for it, so in the end, mummy had to stop him from thinking about those bags and made him pay for my VS bags. Funny guy, thinks he's very rich ah. Hahahaha.

Sorry, can't help smiling the whole day. So very very very happy.

Anyway, history and textile project sucks. I'm having such a hard time with it. Never ever gonna be able to finish it. ): But I'm gonna do my best though! Hope and pray hard that I'll get it right. (:

Today was fine.

I wished both my uncles happy new year, have yet to call the other family members. Hahaha, but feeling damn lazy. ): My 2nd uncle adopted a baby girl this year and she was born on 1st Jan, how lucky is that. Hahahaha, she's called Belinda and I can't wait to go back to see her. Maybe I should migrate back to KL for like a year or two. I really miss my extended family. ):

Talked to Step and Cheter today. Hahahahahaha, so glad that they haven't forgotten about me. It was great, to talk a lil about things that are happening now and things that happened way back. It's like taking a walk down memory lane and picking up pieces that were once lost from my memory. Cheter sent me a song and I shared my joy of Big Bang with him. I still think that he is the only guy that I can enjoy my genre of songs with. You're a great guy Cheter. Step, I hope you luck in life and you know what I'm talking about. Hahahahaha. As years pass by, I know people would drift apart. I just hope that you guys will stop your work one day and remember that I was once your friend, the good and bad times we have shared.

Collected enough ang baos and am going out with dork on thurs and step, jerome and maybe cheter on sat. Can't wait! Hahahaha. Shopping! Going to look for a LV wallet and Guess bag. Really need a new bag and wallet, both are tearing apart already. ):

Whatever, got school tomorrow. CNY in Singapore sucks, other countries celebrate it for a week! DAMN.

Maybe I should drop by RayJay's house tomorrow for coffee. (:

YAY! Happy Chinese New Year yall!

The season of angbaos.(: I guess I've collected enough to let me survive shopping sprees for the whole year. Much thanks to my Daddy! (: Sometimes, dad looks like a nice teddy bear, but when I get home from shopping sprees, he's like a field of landmines. Hahaha.

They boys, sab and joy are back. Sleep over at Devon's today, so he's picking me up a lil later. (: Can't wait for bigbig suave looking apartment. There's gonna be a bartender too, awesome! I miss mahjong, feeling like a real addict now.

Thanks to Ray and Jay, I can't accept the things you brought back. I hate it if it's lacy! Hahaha, so you guys can save it for yourself or give it to someone else. I'll keep the ugg boots though, hahaha, very comfy for bedroom slippers.

I've got a new shopping partner! ....* drum roll *.... Presenting to you, JIE! Hahaha, he has officially been added to shopping list partner! And jie's really cool with it, hahaha, thanks loads jie!

Anyway, HAPPY NEW YEAR YOU GUYS! Love loads from me!

Damn, this is bullshit you guys.

I can't believe it, the hiptop was already out like years ago, no kidd. HOW COULD I HAVE MISSED IT!

Whatever. Crap,totally have to stick to my old old grandpa mobile now. Hahaha, maybe I should call my phone grandpa. Sounds real cute. School has been great, made loads of new friends but I feel like changing course to fashion merchandising. All my friends are in that course. ): Friends in my fashion design course are nice, friends at FM are fun! I miss my old classmates too. ): Especially my clique, Step (for being wierd), Cheter (for being noisy), Val (for being there, literally and metaphorically), Dee (for being my friend) and Rome (for being a friend). I think I miss Cheter and Step's nonsense the most, people in my class just seem high profile.

I need to start running soon, I'm seriously lagging behind in stamina. Almost died climbing up stairs when the lift spoilt yesterday.

Okay, enough with randomness, I feel like getting a lot of things, but I know, it's the recession and I have to save up as much as I can. Just read the news, seems like the recession this time has been likened to the great depression. Who knows, it would be soon till we're living on rations. But when things turn for the better, I'm getting myself a Macbook Pro 17", IPod Touch, Motorola Q11, authentic LV wallet (I finially understand why everyone wants a piece of it, it's mesmerising), whole new set of clothes (I will die for fashion), whole new set of heels and more bags. The list never stops, but I have to due to insufficient financial funds. Or maybe, I'm starting to like LV cause Bigbang wears it. Omg, they are so freaking hawt. Luckily, I have someone to share that joy with and she's in RDI. The first friend I met there, she's really pretty and very nice and she's korean! She promised to help me pick up korean so I can live there when I'm older and hopefully, be able to design for Bigbang! AWESOME! Love her so much. (: I'll miss her when we finish our studies cause she'll leave for US straight. ):

So tired with homework these days. And it's not even normal homework, whatever the teacher gives is a project, be it minor or major. This sucks bad. I'm never gonna be able to finish everything and I don't want to fail. I don't want to waste any precious time anymore, so I'm studying everyday. I've never been so hardworking in my life and I'm really happy about it. (:

Anyways, Devon is bringing the boys back and they'll reach tomorrow morning I think. Joy and Sab will be back for the new year too! I'm feeling so happy already, can't wait to see them. (: MSN and seeing the real person is never the same.



So damn hawt, I can't decide whether T.O.P or GD is hotter. Whatever it is, they just make my heart melt. (:

OMGOMGOMGOMGOMG!




Please take a look at what Motorola have brought into Singapore! OMG LAH CAN! It's the T-Mobile Sidekick! But the product is being carried by Motorola, so they've changed the name to Hiptop. I know right, the name alone turns you off. BUT COME WHAT MAY! I'm gonna lay my hands on that phone. I'll pray to GOD earnestly till the day I finally get it.

Anyway, after that Mahjong session at Cass's, I'm totally hooked on to Big Bang. I know what Kazan will say, " I told you so." Hahahahahahahaha. Sorry for not listening to you, you always asked me to listen to Big Bang, but was too lazy. I finally understand why she likes them so much. Their songs are great! And they've got a really great sense of fashion, something known as the Urban Hiphop. If you guys don't get it, just look at Kanye West, I figure he might be the epitome of Urban Hiphop. I don't know, to me, he is. Talking about fashion, real studying is gonna start tomorrow with textile and history of costume. I'm really excited!

Don't you just admire all the celebrity bloggers? They have looks, money and The Life. Seriously, all of them either have a wealthy family background to begin with or they earn loads just by writing about their awesome lifestyle in blogs. Hahahahaha, I really admire them. So sometimes, I don't understand why they are at each other's throats. But maybe that's what the media wants? I don't know, but reading it at a third person's point of view is really interesting.

Oh well, life's just unfair. It's like how the rich will always get richer and somehow, it's the rich that are born beautiful. They've got everything man. They probably have the Hiptop already and have thrown it away thinking that it's a fashion of the yesteryears. YESTERYEARS mind you. Hahahahaha. Going off to bed now, so please enjoy the video I've placed. I'm sure you won't be disappointed!

Been really lazy to update my blog recently. But I guess, the most recent thing would be starting school in an all new environment. It's awesome. I love the school, the friends I met and my director. He sure is a funny guy.

Was thinking if I should change back to the old blog cause I can't change the blogskin of this new blog.

Tired and going off to bed. Good luck Deff and Sher on your O's results tomorrow. God bless and lots of love from me. I hope you guys will do well. Oh, Sher, sorry I'm no longer in SR, heard from Fedora that you wanted to come so that we could be Senior Junior. Hahahahahaha, sorry darling.

Loves and snooze.

And I'm telling you, platinum blonde is the way to go! =D

I feel like turning platinum blonde, but I'm just not pale enough to handle the colour. I want to have a new hair cut, although I just had one like 5 days ago. Whatever. I think I'm going to try a bob hairstyle this time. Blood red lipstick is in for year 2009 and I don't want 2009 to ever end.

Blah, so goodnight.

IT'S THE NEW YEAR!

Happy new year people of the earth. Party over at Ian's was really fun, loads of laughs and games. Played Mahjong, Scumbag, Indian poker, pig heart attack and 99. MAHJONG ROCKS! Hahahahahahahahaha, I feel like some old aunty all hooked up with mahjong. Anyway, we plan to have another mahjong session at someone else's house before school starts. It's awesome. (:

New year resolution?
I don't know, never really thought about it hard and kept to it. Normally, I just say stuff and forget about it. So this time, I just want to make things realistic. To hell with New year resolution and that I'll just give all the love I have to people I love. Love makes the world go round (I know Ms Ow would kill me when I say this. Cause to her, the world is already round and it does not need to become rounder just because there's love.) Hahahahahaha, I really miss Ms Ow even though she's really fierce sometimes.

I'm really gonna miss going to school with my JC friends. Whatever it is, I really hope them the best of luck in everything they do and for any future decisions, I want to be there to back them up. Give all my love to my Secondary school friends, I really really miss them a lot. Girls, we have to meet up a lot for more mahjong sessions and the boys, I miss all your dirty talk! Last night was really fun because of all your crazy stuff and dirty talk. (:

More love for my dancers, S6+1 and family. Thanks for all the help given to me in the past year, I hope you dancers will strife harder for a better dance future ahead. Although I can't do much with you guys now, but I'll still be there for y'all. S6+1, you've given me nothing bad and everything good. Fun, joy, laughter and love. Even when we fight, we have to resolve it like we always do okay. Family love! (: I think I have to start calling all my relatives soon, although I hope the bill won't shoot up skyhigh. Hahahahahahahaha. I feel bad that I've not been contacting them recently.

LOVE 2009. LOVE GOD. AND LOVE Y'ALL!