):):):):):):):):

Super unhappy today.Had dance practice yesterday but for some reason,fainted halfway,so now I can't train for the upcoming performance.AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.

All my effort.

O well,but the crew was nice.(:
Because of me,everyone slept over at Claire's.Haha,we made the boys sleep on the floor so the girls had more space on the bed.
SLUMBER PARTY!Seriously,I should stop all these gossiping man.Haha,you girls are such a sin.(:

Even though lesser people shared the bed,I almost suffocated to death still.So I kinda stayed up the whole night(anyway,it was quite noisy with all the snoring).Got myself a cup of milk and went out to the balcony to feed mosquito.Saw Jaykwan sitting there as well and soooooo we talked for the whole day again!Who knew we would be such good friends given that he use to bully me all day long.It was nice to cuddle up in his arms in the cold cold night and talk about everything under the moon.XD.If you ever get a girlfriend,she's gonna be the luckiest girl in the world.(:

Sucks,I am kinda lost by not going for dance anymore or is it because of something else?
Just because.
I can't believe myself.
Being happy should be the way.
Something's not feeling right.

Everything's gone.

ITSY BITSY SPIDER.

Killed one just now.XD.These ugly eight legged freaks!(:

HAPPY (BELATED) BIRTHDAY MDM JIANG!<3<3<3

Time to hit the shower and start
HOMEWORK.):

(And no step,I am not going to physically hit my shower.) (:

Say it again for me,
Cause I love the way it feels when you are telling me that I'm
THE ONLY ONE THAT BLOWS YOUR MIND.

Totally loves surprise visit especially when it's from Jaykwan and Raykwan.(:

But no more jumping on my bed.
Seems like I am missing everyone even though I just saw you guys a few days ago.
Thank GOD you guys came along to watch me finish up the card or else I might have sliced my fingers if Jay wasn't that alert.(:
My mind's kinda messed up.
We talked and talked and talked..without icecream.):
I'm following a strict diet, I swear I am AIKY.
I'm not sure if I should have known, but I guess it's great that I still have you as a friend.(:

I LOVE HUGS FROM JAYKWAN AND RAYKWAN.They're always so warm and comforting.
What am I to do without you guys.Loves.


Good luck to you, get that girl you rightfully deserve. You do deserve better.(:

Don't act like you know me, because you don't.
Don't judge me, because you don't know me to begin with.
Surrounded by too many superficial people, who to trust?

Why doesn't anyone appreciate?
Just because?
I can't be bothered anymore.
Not with him and not with her.
STOP MAKING ME TURN BACK TO LOOK AT YOU.
I am trying to move on can't you see.
Let me forget what I have been trying to.
I can't stop it once I've started.

Don't put me back in agony.

Thanks Raykwan and Jaykwan, but I think I will pass that offer. I just want to stay at home for now.
Loves.(:

Met up with Raykwan today and yes,if there is a striking resemblance between his name and Jaykwan's,that's because they are brothers.(:
Both so different yet both knows me inside out.
But I hate it when you guys break me down.
I will remember what you said today and thanks for listening to a little brat ranting on and on.
LOVE YOU GUYS SO SO MUCH.(:

"Don't cry,just suck it all in and that's what makes you stronger.(:"

Should have gone to US with you guys.I miss you guys when you all are not around.


She believes all your love lies and sweet talk
She is afraid that you will let her off

But you gotta remember, I'm not her.

I seriously have no idea why I am alone at home now.Everyone seems busy these days.

A Levels oral today,I was very very very disappointed with myself.):
Screwed up the first part of my oral because I was too nervous and the later part was horrible because the teachers totally had no intentions of listening to me.They were shaking their legs,looking elsewhere and just trying to get me to leave quickly so they can end early(I guess).I felt no point in continuing anyway,it probably just goes in and out of that thick skull of theirs.Why can't Mdm Jiang be our invigilator?Is that how Singapore determines their talents.I am utterly disgusted.This is probably why I hate studying,how can they guarantee that the teachers are putting in their best?And I am not even going to the part about teaching,I am just merely talking about the marking of our papers.That's why art is the best,you can never disregard someone else's talent because it would always be clearly evident.

I am feeling an all time low now,I really really need to talk to aiky or dorky
Missing S6,they never fail to make me laugh
I THANK GOD FOR YOU GUYS.(:

I thought about it long and hard,what am I doing in a JC?It was never my intention to come to a JC,furthermore,why am I wasting my life here stressing myself up?Nothing I learn here will ever help me in my future career.I regret.MY BIGGEST AND DEEPEST REGRET.I wasted my life away for my parents,but I guess,I do owe it to them somehow.I do thank GOD that I am given the chance to study,but I am just not cut out for studying.Why don't anyone seem to get it.Maybe life's just like that.

I see Mr brighteyedhappybubblypersonality walking out of my front door and not even bothering to wave goodbye.

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
I tear my heart open just to feel
Drunk and I'm feeling down
and I just wanna be alone
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

Snips from a great great song,if you haven't heard it,you're missing out.

Homework):

greyskies,darkclouds and you were that beautifulgoldensun(:

NITTY GRITTY!

MIDS ARE OOOOOOOOOOOOOOVER!Don't feel good about it though,but I did try my best.

NOTE:I AM SORRRRRRYYYY JEROME.I AM SORRY KHAI.I will keep quiet from tomorrow onwards.

BLOGSHOPS rock pebbles.Haha.

Anyway,went out SHOPPING today.Very happy now.But Dee's boyfriend's friend is so wierd.He was checking out Val the whole time,very perversly.OH,and Dee said he was staring at my feet or butt just now.WAS SO WIERD LAA.It's either he has never seen such a small feet or never seen such a perky ass.STUPID SHIT.I felt like telling him in the face that he IS toooooooooooooo FUGLY and that Val is tooooooooooooooooo tall for him.Dee was like telling us that he is real wierd too.She forgot to mention ugly though.XD.O well,I hope I will never ever see him again.I was totally freaked out by him.O and Dee,you LUCKY LUCKY girl,he seems like a real nice guy,a dinosaur.So stop it about angmohs ahh.Haha.

So tired now.Somehow,I totally regretted joining squash.I am starting to lose passion for it or maybe I never did have it to start with.Other people in other CCAs seem so happy.I don't know why I can't seem to like it as much as I use too.I wish I had joined table tennis with Dee and Step or maybe just continued on with guzheng and try to get that Gold that I never did get in Secondary School.ARGH.All the regrets in life I made.This year seems to pass real fast,it will pass soon and all these will just be memories.(:

I love you GOD,I just hope you could make my life seem less suicidal.