Crappy weekend.

Friday was like a rollercoaster ride.Lit was the problem,why must they always use such emotional teaching material.Haha.We did some character analysis in which Miss Chew showed us some videos about father daughter relationship.One was the disney characters,another was christina's hurt and last was bob carlisle's butterfly kisses.Didn't plan to cry,but when I heard Step sobbing,WTH,couldn't help myself.Shall show you the lyrics of butterfly kisses,really really touching.

There's two things I know for sure:
She was sent here from heaven and she's
daddy's little girl.
As I drop to my knees by her bed at night
She talks to Jesus and I close my eyes and
I thank god for all the joy in my life
Oh, but most of all
For butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer;
sticking little white flowers all up in her
hair; "Walk beside the pony, Daddy, it's my first ride."
"I know the cake looks funny, Daddy, but I sure tried."
In all that I've done wrong I know I must
have done something right to deserve a hug
every morning and butterfly kisses at night.

Sweet 16 today
She's looking like her mama a little more everyday
One part woman, the other part girl.
To perfume and make-up from ribbons and curls
Trying her wings out in a great big world.

But I remember
Butterfly kisses after bedtime prayer; sticking
little white flowers all up in her hair.
"You know how much I love you, Daddy, But if you
don't mind I'm only gonna kiss you on the cheek this time."
With all that I've done wrong I must have done
something right to deserve her love every morning
and butterfly kisses at night.

All the precious time
Like the wind, the years go by.
Precious butterfly.
Spread your wings and fly.

She'll change her name today.
She'll make a promise and I'll give her away.
Standing in the bride-room just staring at her.
She asked me what I'm thinking and I said "I'm not
sure-I just feel like I'm losing my baby girl."
She leaned over...gave me butterfly kisses with her mama there,
Sticking little white flowers all up in her hair"
Walk my down the aisle, Daddy-it's just about time."
"Does my wedding gown look pretty, Daddy? Daddy, don't cry!"

Oh, with all that I've done wrong I must have
done something right.
To deserve your love every morning and butterfly
kisses-I couldn't ask God for more, man this is what love is.

I know I gotta let her go, but I'll always remember
every hug in the morning and butterfly kisses.

It's really sad.And to make it worst,fate was playing games with me.O well.Had dance party that night.Stupid,I didn't know anything until Von came to pick me up.Met all my dance mates there.Was cool cause we haven't seen each other for like the longest time and finally got together because of Jaykwan.And where ever Jaykwan is there will be stupid conversations.(:

Jay:"How old are you?"
Me:"*WTH*17 man,how could you forget?!"
J:"Single?"
M:"Duh and GAY too all thanks to you."
J:"Want a guy?"
M:"*Wondering if he ever listens*No,Jay,do you know what gay means?"
J:"Lost your virginity?"
M:"HELL NO MAN."

That's when JP came and dragged him onto the dance floor to end this stupid conversation.Know what I meant when I said if he ever listens.LOL.Stupid shit,should totally slap him left,right,centre.Anyway,the dance party was great.

When like about 7/8 of the people were getting drunk and falling limp over the couches,I sat down with Von,JP and Claire to catch up and have a little drink.Was fine until Von asked me if I regretted not going.I started to question myself,what have I gotten myself into?Was coming to JC the right choice or should I have taken that chance to go overseas and train for dance.If I did,I probably would be as good as Jay or maybe even have the chance to tour like Von,probably not so much of the later.Damn.Whatever it is,the opportunity is gone and I should just look foward.Right?

Had to wake up damn early for hist lesson on sat.SUCKS BIG TIME.Totally wanted to sleep.After which,we did a little PW and then I had to leave for my dental.RETAINERS ARE CUTE!

Continued with PW today and piles and piles of homework stacked on my desk.Feel the pressure man.