Not feeling good these days.Why is everything not to my advantage or will?

I was voted squash captain,and I don't know if I should feel happy or sad.No doubt,I am glad that I am captain,but it wasn't because my peers voted for me.I was voted for vice captain and I rather have that position,but for wierd reason,the votes changed and now I am captain.I DON'T WANT.I feel bad so bad that I don't think I can face the real captain.THIS SUCKS.Everyone's telling me it's not my fault,but when you are in my position,you will understand where all this is coming from.It's like a stone weighing me down.Sorry that I am being very emo these days and it is reflecting in my post.I don't even laugh that much anymore now.Was JC the good choice?I guess I just have to pull through and be THE captain from today onwards.Just wanted to rant.

Anyway,had dork's birthday dinner today.Was fun I guess,really love her to bits.Haha.What grace said was true,it is only this sort of things that we finally get together,the whole S6+1.<3.Totally cam whored and then we went home.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY DEAR!Although it was like suppose to be on the 25th April,but still.

Walked home with Grace and I was listening to her problems.Then she asked me if I was still anti-guy.Am I?I really question myself.Was it because of you?But anyway,I have my eyes on some else in my school now.Don't know how long it's going to be cause school term is ending soon and I might not get to see him again or maybe I might.

O well,I still wanna thank GOD for giving me a chance to study in a JC to meet all these great friends.Thank HIM for giving me a chance in squash and letting me be in exco.Although some things are not going well,but I believe GOD paves a way for me and I will prevail in the end.Loves.